Abhinav's Blog

Hey whats the fuss about man!

iabhinav — Mon, 10 Apr 2006 15:01:12 +0000

There are times when you feel low, you feel disappointed, you feel like you are living in hell.But actually I may consider this period of time as a time when you can heal yourself.The time when you can think about whats goin on and what actually went wrong.There is always a hope to be something and that alone hope makes those thought be converted into action.

So may be you got it right, I had a bad day.Well had a fight with my parents concerning my life!Well basically I might be wasting some of my time in fully faltu utilities.So time to correct it now.I am planning to cut off those time and utilise it somewhere productivly.

Planing to take a leave off from this cyber world and even planning to do something good about my life.You may say I am on going construction from the bottom of my soul these days.

New Mobile-Old Gone

iabhinav — Sun, 09 Apr 2006 20:21:05 +0000

Well nothing much going on.Just school, tutions and walks in the evening and night time.Thats it.Well but still Good News is that I was fed up with my old Nokia 6600 and now I am planning to buy a New Handset.Well price range has been fixed by my family for upto 14,000-15,000 rs. since last time I wasted almost 16,000 bucks on my old cell which was like nothing as compared to what I will get for that much money now.
I have planned to take Moto Razer v3 i which costs around 13,000 Rs. or a New N 70 by shalling out my pocket money to get it.

My dad coud’nt have agreed but thanks to the money earned by me online through Google Adsense that now I hold some rights to just get whatever I want to out of my own pocket money.Yes, this is my first spending of anything bigger as for now.

Still, life seems depressing and low in life.I have no friend to talk with about anything intresting.All busy with there own tunes.Damn, I am really feeling lonely these days.
Along with it there are some friends who might be using me these days as a so called planned game made by them.So need to tackle on with this tension too.
Uuuuf seems will have some tuff time this weekdays.

Damn I got caught!

iabhinav — Thu, 06 Apr 2006 14:20:44 +0000

Well today I was being caught by a Professional Hacker I just helped a security expert to assemble some data base for his project and which required me to crack down one top IT company to be cracked down.I just messed up and left like a foot print on there PC.Was caught but my friend helped me out by helping me change there proxy networks IP address.

Never mind if you dont understand this things that I must be saying but keep it a secret that I am now a Security Expert and a Member of NAG(National Anti-Hack Group,India)

I have now got invitation from many security forums to be a V.I.P. But since I am right now in 12th and dont have time to tackle all the situations so I have taken a leave from this tech world side of me.But truely I wanna reach the top of this world and inspired to be competiting with Bill Gates

So what really happened today, )

Nothing much actually but I am going on a confusion today, whether I am having attraction towards somebody or whether its something different or whether the situations are making these things happen.Damn I am turning into something strange these days.

Along with it, well tutions school and life is keeping me busy.Along with this blog I am planing to start a new tech site along with keeping and launching my new websites back online Monzilla and Monzine

The new site is all about coding and its a Security Top 10 site!

Whenever you feel low!

iabhinav — Wed, 05 Apr 2006 14:37:37 +0000

Well whenever I feel low and dishearted I just do one thing.Well go to a temple, ie. Hanuman Mandir, Cannaught Place in Delhi or go to a Hospital.Well help some needy people.Look what God has given you but not them.Take a pledge and just say thank to God for providing me with anything that you might have.For helping me till now for what I am and for helping me in future for what I am not.

There were some old people with no eyes.They are just relieble on people like us.May be thats why I may truely now want to cut off some money from my pocket money and look for investing some money in there life.I might be enjoying with my friends in the near by place District Centre where all my friends do go casually but that is where I change my mind and go to some place where I may invest those masti money in a place I can help.

I dont look for rewards for doing anything but still I want to tell you.Please do the same.Just help someone whom you can.Just invest some McDonalds burgers to those who really need it.That will make your soul better may be…..but not the all time masti nature that people do have.

Whats the fuss all about-Study,Study,and Study!

iabhinav — Wed, 05 Apr 2006 14:37:36 +0000

Well my parents are back at me asking me to study and study.Damn it looks like I have been given over torch-er these days:-P But Still mom, dad I know what I need to do in my life.Please live me alone I will do it! That's what I generally say, but well I know they say so because they want my better.OK I understand and that's why I need to clear my priorities now.

May be today I am feeling more comfortable thats because well there is somebody who got trust on me and I got understanding that I shouldnt be breaking that.Thats what will be my basic priority.I dont know how I will pay back for what my parents might have done for me.But still there are some things which you cannot pay back atleast in this life,But you may try.

Thanks God for giving me such lovin parents!

I am a rockstar!

iabhinav — Wed, 05 Apr 2006 14:30:41 +0000

Well there is a rock-star inside me!I sing like a rock-star think like a rapper(ie, Eminem).I am a artistic boy indeed and like to be creative.Well I don't take things easy in life and small things in life does matter to me.I am just me and a psycho who does do things which no other people do.For example at my age I am a Computer Genius, thats true.I am a reputed member in many forums and I am administrator on many forums.Well even some forums are member of NAG.co.in thats National Anti-Hack Group of India.This is one secret thatno one nows about me, thats including my friends and family.Though I might be great and I know it but still I would be a modest always.Its like I am made to be a Modest Guy.

Nothing much to say today.Just listening to some rock music.And now I am planning to get a Guitar for myself and grow my hair longer

Believe me, Dont believe on anyone!

iabhinav — Wed, 05 Apr 2006 14:20:10 +0000

Well today I realized that some of my friends are actually using me.Well the thing is clear some people just join your group for the matter of seeking something from you.Dont just beleive on anyone now, thats the moral I can say I got today.

Next, is that without even knowing I made some mistakes actually.There is some one who is my friend but some of my friends used me to contact my friend's friends.Well thats like they were using me as a So called BAHANA in hindi.

Well never mind, thank god I got this on time.Lets hope for a better life ahead now.

[I had a accident yesterday, seems like days arent on my side these days]

Yet to be remembered.

iabhinav — Tue, 04 Apr 2006 14:20:12 +0000

There is a real good friend of mine,Roopam.Well we are having basic understanding between each other which makes us very good friend.We are the friends for lifetime.Whatever happens to me he will be there, and whatever happens to him then I think I will be there for sure.

We had some problems due to some girls who messed up.Well but still due to our strong friendship this small annoying misunderstanding could not broke up our friendship.This made our bonding more stronger.Well that surely made me think that this friend is a friend who is a real friend.The basic extinct is that today I really need to dedicate one of my post to him

Even though its not a Friendship day, but truely it doesnt matter for me which day it is in life.I dont care about dates.I dont try to search for days to make your day better or say something.

Still I would like to say roopam, Hey buddy, Thanks for being my friend for life!

I am feeling lonely!

iabhinav — Mon, 03 Apr 2006 06:55:22 +0000

This world is damn cruel.Every damn person got a purpose to talk to.I am feel lonely because there is no one whom I can have faith on.The person talking with you nicely today will try to harm you tomorrow when he got his work done.Its all about living in a society full of people with competition.Koi yaha par kisika barosa nahi kar sakta hain.

I am really dishearted for what might have happened.And I even say thanks to god that atleast you made me aware of things before hand.Now I am lonely because for whom I had faith is lost.I am really depressed at this moment.

Rang De Basanti- Late but lately

iabhinav — Sun, 02 Apr 2006 06:55:20 +0000

This might be a movie of a lifetime.When you see it you feel incomplete.Even if my country might have got the all named" Independence" but still we all are struggling all way into this country's problem.The much talked about topic like Corruption , the topic about which we talk about as a topic of discussion and just go on doing nothing about it.

You might even have seen corruption flonting in your daily life.Its something you might have even thought about something but still what can you do?Atleast from my side I have made a pledge not to be a part of the system.If I will change in what so ever condition then I think that will make a slight difference and if we all start changing ourself then it will make a slightly major difference.

I am a Inspirational guy.I am patriotic.I am spiritual and after all I am a indian.Thats why I may say I am what I am and thats what I am.People reading this blog may feel that I am an overly open minded guy.But still I would say I am.I dont care about people generally.I say whatever I might feel about openly and even I ask people to say anything they feel about me openly.Because that way you get to see the real image of things.

Ok now I am over charged to change this well being world and lets see how I go…

NOTE: I even got a pirated DVD within few days of the release, well these DVDs were made due to corruption in the Cyber Crime department.Well now I wont say I will stop using pirated DVDs

Day yet to be remembered

iabhinav — Sat, 01 Apr 2006 05:51:13 +0000

Today I had a very bad day, the problem were my trouble making friends.I was required to resolve there problems and handle the misconceptions that these people were having within themself.

People with ego lack behind in life, there mind goes banana sometime. Thats what I might have got to know today.I would say its been high time that I enjoyed the 10 days break which I had before the new session commencing in my school.So from now on no gup-shup, I am required to concentrate on my studies from now and be a nice boy for my mom and dad.

I had wasted almost so much time roaming here and there, though I did enjoyed that and wish life could have been with no responsibility.But now its a strange phase of life for me, Its undue pressure from parents so that I can be something in life and pressure for peers to make a image of them.But thats not the case life goes on with me.

I aint a guy who is looking for some mean purpose to stay in lifes reathm.I might not be even a egoistic person as per as what I feel about me.I do believe in love of different kinds and but I am not the person who will be looking for love eka Girl Friends in this phase of life.Love is something which I may try to explain now but still when you may fall in true love then you might be speechless.Love is a Astrolots of God.Its something which I may try to write about right now but still when I keep on writing I may be having a Broken Pen and Paper with myself wondered hopeless.See even now I dont know what to say about love.

Love got different meaning in life.You love your parents you love your friends and you yourself love yourself then why its all fuss about.When you love someone then you feel happy when you see the person.I different kind of Happiness enters your mind which is something which keeps on for timeless extinct.

I might not have fallen in love but I want to be sure whenever I fall in love.I dont want to loose myself for one being but when you loose yourself and you are there only for his/her.You think about that person well being and you can do anything for his/her. May be thats love.

Thats why I am not looking for a Girl just as often I dont even think of like that though I know that there will be one person waiting for me and looking for me.I am waiting for the same one.I am not going to be mistaken by a simple crush and love.These 2 things are entirely different things from my minds perception.Waiting for the right one is what you might say love; this waiting even may explain what love is.But still I dont know what might be love.

This is really a fact.

iabhinav — Fri, 31 Mar 2006 21:03:57 +0000

Well in my last post I must have talked about the incident I had.Well its not something that I may talk about or something.Even it is not even a topic to talk on but still I feel regret that why people take the meanings entirely differently and cannot judge on there own.Why just people thnk about all this.Means people are mad.

In my peer group who witnessed the "Hi" only talk said by my friend was taken as an political topic in todays conversation.Abhey a friend just made a big topic and started teasing as expected.So what could I have done?

Well I just could have gone angrily and said that its not the thing which truly wasnt to talk about.But that might have made the topic more broader.So I just went on the starting and explained him everything that its not like that and whatever you people talked wasnt right and you should be regretting for and all.

And finally dispute solved and they wont be talking anything like that. Well a smart way to talk to people is talk calmly with full explaination.

NOTE:Hope the girl dont start thinking like what all indian boys do?

Why cant a girl be good friend?

iabhinav — Thu, 30 Mar 2006 20:49:03 +0000

Well today I would say I saw the real side of indian thinking.Well there is a girl named Swathika(name edited to keep her privacy incase) I know her as she is living in my street and well we might be good friends.She is very nice by nature and i must say not even egoistic as she can be. But well thats the nice part of her.She might have not talked to me for what silly mistake I did asking her one thing but that may be a sin that she is good friend of mine and understood me well.Though i dont talk to her much and nor even she but still I really made a mistake by not even realizing I am living in a society which thinks differently without a midium.

Basically I had gone to play cricket(which i dont like to play much though) and a friend of mine Kunal(True name since a boys privacy doesnt matter in india ) had some problem with her egoistic Girl Friend. Well his mobile boiled over and was down to battery low.Her friend called on my cell as requested by kunal and me being a daan vir karan(Indi Phrase).Kunal asked me to help him out by making her GF realize that she cant be egoistic anymore.So what I thought is a girl name and voice can do the trick and make her worry enough.

So well just my mind flicked and I thought of just asking Swathika to talk and just say Hi to get a confirmation of a voice.But you know what went wrong?I was mad. I took care about my friend kunal and damn I didnt even thought that what Swathika will go through?Man I asked a girl openly and it seems like I was daring her inplace of all the people seeing us.Damn that must have made her guilty.

You know people in here think that if a Girl and Boy talks that means there is something in between them.But its not the case always.Swathika is a very good friend of mine and thats why I might surely thought of asking her to talk on the fone in the park that she was jogging in.I didnt had thoughts what people will say and all.I thought that she is just a friend and I know it and this might be Ok.But damn world.Its harsh messy and very strange thoughts of world in here.

So now as I felt that I just did a mistake so I just went on and said her that I am really sorry and I had no idea about what mistake I did so please dont feel bad or something.

And better part was that she is a nice friend and she understood me well! She said Ok and even agreed with me.May be thats what I liked that she understood the fact and not went the indian way thinking.So the day ended by saying sorry to her and that was it.

Moral: If you talk with a girl then talk casually only.See the world and then take a step.Just be friends;)

Reading Book- God’s Debris

iabhinav — Wed, 29 Mar 2006 20:53:35 +0000

These days I am reading the book wriittenby Scott Adams.The book named God's Debris
I will suggest you to go to the writter's website to know about the book.But still I will vote 10/10. Since this is the rarest of all the books ever read by me.

Synopsis

Imagine that you meet a very old man who—you eventually realize—knows literally everything. Imagine that he explains for you the great mysteries of life—quantum physics, evolution, God, gravity, light, psychic phenomenon, and probability—in a way so simple, so novel, and so compelling that it all fits together and makes perfect sense. What does it feel like to suddenly understand everything? God's Debris isn’t the final answer to the Big Questions. But it might be the most compelling vision of reality you will ever read. The thought experiment is this: Try to figure out what’s wrong with the old man’s explanation of reality. Share the book with your smart friends then discuss it later while enjoying a beverage.

28th March-Hard Worker’s day

iabhinav — Tue, 28 Mar 2006 21:04:00 +0000

They day went like real hard worker's day for me.I just woke up early at 12.30 PM Yeh this was early for me since I didnt had any sleep in the night time.Went to sleep urly at almost 6.30 when my dad told good morning I said Good Night dad!

Well basic reason, I was working on my new site Monzine basically the site isnt up yet and I wont be disclosing it now.

Oh I think you really dont know much about me?Ok I am a 17 year old geek preparing for IIT-JEE sitting on computers most of the time reading ebooks and making websites and maintaining them online.

I might be the only person in my friend circle who earns his own pocket money by sitting on computer and doing something creative rather then play computer games(I dont play games!;) )Main source of income is through Google Adsense its the only source of income for me as for now.

I even know some security and anti-hacking programming and hence I am not a group of any hacking group.Though I am a reputated person in Nog.co.in and Igniteds.net Forum Admin.I might be having many contacts with technology geeks in india.And got good skills to activate the super income by optimizing Adsense ads.Thats why I even work as an Search Engine Optimisation and Adsense Optimization pal for all those who need my friend.

As expected my studies suffer for it and I am hence planning to make my projects more stable for me to handle.

Reason for me blogging in here.

iabhinav — Sat, 18 Mar 2006 20:51:39 +0000

As the title states I want to define the main basic reason for me hanging out in here and typing some words with the help of my keyboard and hands.
Its simple, I am blogging for myself.I am blogging for just to blog.I wont be giving this blog address to any of my friend as much as in case of xe-gency.But still its going to be a space where I will be shooting of my thoughts never the less knowing that even someone is reading it.

It doesnt matter for me to ask people and increase my daily visits.Its me and my blog reading and writing and describing life and the stories which I am making on this lonely planet living with lonely people in a lonely place like Delhi.

If you continue reading my blog then I hope you will find many of my thoughts are extremely open minded and without even thinking I am writing from solely my thoughts.
I might not be asham of naming myself which I truly will do soon.But still I can be online if u really liked the way I share things in the way it is.
For a introductory post I think this might be the basic of me blogging in here!